a little about me

through film photography i have found a tool to express myself, emotionally, physically and visually-without having to have words to explain what i might be feeling. through film photography, i feel connected to something bigger than myself when i am out shooting pictures. when i am not shooting pictures, i am writing short stories and working on my first book. i am also a published, emerging writer.

my pronouns are They/Them/She/He. I am of  Metis, Cree and Romanian Ancestry, in active recovery from complex post traumatic stress. i am deeply spiritual but not religious. i do not follow any particular practise of Belief. I Believe in Everything.

i do not see complex post traumatic stress as a disorder but as persistent repeated  injuries.

i was diagnosed with cptsd in 2001 and had no idea what it meant or what to do about it. at that time, the concept was still fairly new so there wasn’t a lot of resources or help. in January 2015, after many years of hard emotional work, i finally found myself beginning to fully understand and experience what complex post traumatic stress is for me, personally. it was then that i began to see life through a wider, more empowered lens. and it was at that time, when i fully realized the scope of exciting work ahead of me, through my work in film photography.

a part of the purpose of this site is to give myself a platform; to let go of my pain and suffering. it no longer serves me to suppress the upset i feel over things that were done throughout my child and adult life; things that were not only unjust but also ruthless and devoid of love or compassion. my soul has no more room for worrying about people being angry with me for speaking my truth to how i have experienced my life.

i am the one who has lived it.

daily attention to gratitude and actions of loving expression are paramount in my growth and recovery. through my film photography, i see myself in all that i see in my pictures of the world and all that is in it. life is hard and beautiful and worth living and i can truly believe this, through the pictures i shoot and create. 

my favourite subject to shoot on film is street art and graffiti because of its impermanence and rawness. i like to put my own unique visual spin on an art that can vanish just as quickly as it appears. like complex ptsd, graffiti art is on unstable ground. in a sense, through my pictures, what i give this art form is a permanent and stable home so to speak.  i am eternally grateful to street artists for the work they unknowingly do that helps me heal.

if you are interested in collaborating or would like to buy any of my images, please contact me through the contact form of this site.

thank you for being a witness to my journey.

with gratitude,

princess shredder